de-preciated

de-preciated

Sometimes I wonder why I bother with a lot of things. For example, why do I bother calling/making plans with people who don't call/make plans with me? Why do I bother helping people who clearly don't appreciate it? I wonder then I remember. Oh, right, it's cuz I give a shit about these people. It's because I value them and if they show it back then the effort was worth it.

But of course, there are those that don't appreciate it.

Now, I am not the type of person to demand that I be given recognition let alone thanks for favour I do for friends. That's just not my style. And most of my friends show, in even the smallest ways, that they are thankful if I help them out. Today, I actually felt the duty to let someone know that I was being treated unfairly. What an awful position to placed in! To be made to feel like a fuck-up for helping a friend is such a horrible feeling!

What is wrong with people who can't see beyond themselves, who can't look at the person in front of them and put themselves in that person's shoes? Some people are so selfish and in that selfishness they get consumed in themselves to the point where they are incapable of empathy. I'm angry because I know so many people like that. People who get threatened by nice things I do for them. People who are so self absorbed they can't step away from their own bubble.

It makes me question why I do these things, why I bother giving a shit about these people. The truth is I care and will always care, which may only makes things harder for me.

Anyway, I'm tired and exhausted, but I will say that saying thank you goes a long way.

So say it and mean it. Someone will appreciate it.